Yesterday morning I faced a similar sight: two open suitcases and a bare room. I felt a similar feeling: excitement stirred with far too many dashes of doubt. This is happening; I’m closing one chapter and turning to nothing but blank pages.
Then at the half-way point in my journey to Sydney, I have a thought at 1.09 am: “Turn around, go home.”
It’s amusing how certainty gives the illusion of comfort. I left home in order to seek out more ideal conditions, but nothing can dilute the odour of uncertainty that drifts with any daring decision. That stench surrounded me in the middle of the night. It gets us all at different times and in different scenarios, but it’s always felt as fear – fear of the unknown.
It’s also the reason for sayings like: “The devil you know is better than the devil you don’t.”
Well, here’s what I do know: I held by breath through the night and woke to the fresh air of possibility and this beautiful view. There’s also now something on the first page. Something that was written by me. Not my imagination.
What stinks in your life?